I Hate Small Talk

Am I the only person that dreads small talk with people you just met? I mean, if I know you (or if you follow this blog) you can easily tell that I have entirely too much to say about the most random shit here on earth but small talk is absolutely horrible... I think it could be because it's so formal... it's not information anybody really cares about... I don't know if it's a skill I can develop or what but I'm horrible at it... it's just sad to sit and watch...

Sometimes after it's over, I sit back and think about it and I'm like that just went BADLY...

Them: "Hi, how are you?"
Me: "I'm fine."
Them: "So what brings you out here today?"
Me: "Ummm..." *blank stare* "No reason really... just, ummmmm... stopping through."
Them: "Oh ok... so are you a student here?"
Me: "Ummm... yeah... I go to ECU." (obviously you go to ECU... that's what she JUST asked!)
Them: "Oh ok, what are you studying there?"
Me: "I'm an English major."
Them: "Oh ok... so what do you plan to do with that?"
Me: "Ummmmm... I'm not sure yet. Teach. Maybe. I don't know."
Them: "Are you from North Carolina?"
Me: "Um... yeah, I live here in North Carolina. Have lived here in North Carolina. All my life. Never lived anywhere else really."
Them: "What city are you from?"
Me: "Raleigh."
Them: "Oh ok... well, I'm going to get back to my desk. It was nice to meet you."
Me: "You too."


FUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!

I hate this shit... I know it was hard for ya'll to read because it was hard for me to say!!! I don't know why my social skills are so bad when it comes to making small talk because nothing else is really a problem (except when I'm arguing... I'm almost NOTORIOUS for saying the wrong thing... ask Nicole about my "that's not my problem!" comment when I really meant to say "that's not my fault..." I just stammer over words sometimes...) and notice how I didn't even ask the other person any questions... I didn't get ANY information from them... I don't know what it is... that's the reason I hate to meet people's family and friends because I'm so scared I'ma come off like a dumbass or something...


Ya'll be easy...