WWHWD? (What Would Hard Work Do?)

I just finished watching the story of Nick Young on ESPN (took a break from Looney Tunes... I'm back on it though) and they were showing how this guy killed his brother when he was younger... so they were trying to set up this meeting between Nick and his fam and the guy who murdered his brother... it never happened... his pops got frustrated and walked off...

Then I got to thinking... if somebody killed Jamal, could I meet with them, much less forgive them? Right now, I'm in a little war with God (more on that later) but I still acknowledge who He is and what He wants us to do... I try my best to forgive those who have done me wrong... my father, exes, friends... the shit hurts when it's happening but as you move on to bigger and better things, in the long run, you see how that situation helped you grow as a person... that's another story for another day so I'ma leave that alone until I'm ready to address it...

Back to my original point... could I forgive the nigga who killed my little brother? I don't think I could... I'm not a hot-head anymore (thanks to two years of anger management) but when I get mad, it's almost impossible to console me... you just have to let me be by myself or else I'm liable to kill a motherfucker... let me get something understood... Jamal is about the closest thing I have to a best friend... that's probably the one person I could tell anything to and he wouldn't bat an eye... and the crazy thing is, he's not even really my brother... he's really a distant cousin somehow (it's been explained how we're related but I don't remember how) but this nigga is my motherfucking brother... more of my brother than my own little brothers... I'd do anything for him and I know he'd do anything for me...

I just... I don't know... I don't know how people get to that place where they can forgive someone who's killed their loved one... I've never had anybody close to me killed before and I'm not even sure if I could take it... I don't keep a lot of people close to me... I generally keep niggas at an arm's length because alot of niggas out there are snakes... so if someone close to me were to die... I just don't know fam... I really don't... I realize this shit don't have much of a direction but that's just because I'm speaking off the top... if I'ma be real, I'ma be real... don't have to be structuring shit so that it's easier on the reader... so my apologies for that but just... damn... I got that much more respect for Nick Young (he's a guard for the Wizards for those that don't know) and what he's accomplished... I'd be frustrated beyond measure not to go and find the nigga that did my brother...

Didn't think I'd be this deep on the first day... (damn, am I on post four already?) but just had to get out my thoughts before I forgot them... ya'll niggas be easy...










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