Dreams

So it's 5:18 in the AM and the kid is up... no particular reason, just feel like being up... I've always had bouts with insomnia so I guess this is one of those particular times where a nigga just can't sleep... but in any event, I'm not complaining... I'm up listening to Little Brother, cuffin' a water bottle so it's nothing...

Right now "Dreams" is playin' and if you haven't heard it, I advise you to go buy 11 copies of The Getback and get your listen on... but anyway, the joint has always been one of my favorites off the album... the hook plays like this:

"Mama, I got dreams... but dreams don't keep the lights on"

And you know, that's some dope shit... like, how many people are out doing what they've always dreamed about? I know me, I always thought I'd make it to the NFL... that was my dream, but unfortunately, it didn't come to pass... I know alot of people out there wanted that same dream, or to be in the NBA, or be the greatest rapper or whatnot and it's like... damn, are dreams really worth it? I mean, don't get it fucked up... I realize a lot of people do get to live their dream lives and they worked really hard to get it... but it's like... in our world, bills, families, finances fucking consume us and it's nothing we can really do because we live in America...

I think a person should do whatever it takes to wake up with a smile and fall asleep feelin' like you did something you can be proud of... one person I always have respected was Kanye West... homie was a college dropout and heard people tell him it was a mistake and that he wasn't gonna do shit and he flipped that, did his thing and now he's on top of the world... and did that shit while calling his CD "College Dropout" I mean how gangster is that shit? You see examples of it all the time... people leaving the so-called norm to follow their dreams and do what makes them happy... to me, I can respect that shit even if it doesn't always come to fruition as fast as one would like... the fact that you went head-first, 100 miles an hour for your dream is some shit that garners major respect from me...

But then again, I think... is there an expiration date on dreams? I mean, I'm the first to believe in someone and what they wanna do but I think at a certain point, it's time to put that to rest... I'm relatively young... I'll be 24 tomorrow... but I still feel like some things, I just gotta give up on for the sake of my future... the NFL, NBA, WWE just ain't gonna happen... it's dudes like 19, 20 runnin' shit in the L... I think it's fair to say, it's not gonna happen for me... it's my personal belief that if you're over the age of 35 talking about being a rapper, producer and you're not even on the cusp of realizing that shit, it's time to call it a wrap... if you not at least out on your block sellin' them shits by hand then just take the L and move on... especially if you living in like your mom's basement using the bathroom as the "studio"... like... come on B... now if you doing it strictly for the art of it, then by all means, do your thing homie... that's some real powerful love shit right there... real talk... but if you still telling your mom and your girl and your kids that you're just waiting for this one hit so that Jay and them niggas will put you on... like, who are you foolin' besides yourself? Only rappers I know over the age of 35 are niggas who BEEN rappin' for a minute...

I think that after a certain period of time, you have to make NEW dreams... holding on to the same dreams can make a person go insane... I think that's what drives a lot of people to drink, do drugs and the like... motherfuckers had major dreams and either had it snatched away or they realized that what they had been wanting all along just wasn't feasible... I mean, think about it... I know everybody out there knows somebody who's a major alcoholic and dreamer that tells you of tall tales and how they're about to do this and cop that and go here... I mean, I know alot of people think it's comic relief but I actually feel bad for those niggas... because that could easily be me... or YOU... I mean, we don't know what God has in store for us ya know? Right now I'm in school and talking about going to the army once I graduate... for all I know, I could lose my legs tomorrow and not be able to go to the army so that means, I would have to get a new dream...

Ironically, "I Luv Your Girl" by The-Dream just came on, so I'ma end it right here... ya'll niggas be easy... I'ma get some sleep...